I Call You Jerk

since i knew you you are so damn kind
you give me words such as a beautiful things
you sang a lot of song for me
and i fly high till the seventh sky

i don't know what i've done
i don't know what it's means
but you're really kind
and i think i love you

what the f*cking condition now
you're gone just like disappeared
you've opened my heart
but you didn't come into it

I call you jerk right now
coz i think you are
I call you jerk right now
coz yeah you really are

i saw you in the street
while it started being an ugly morning
you smiled and laughed
but i know it wasn't for me

you hold her hand strongly
so warm and safely
but she is my best friend
and i feel i wanna slap your cheek

i have to face the truth
and let you go to run your destiny
but it still open
and i don't know why

I call you jerk right now
coz i think you are
I call you jerk right now
coz yeah you really are

One day

when the candle lights on
you turns me on to you
when the darkness night come
you pull me and hold me warm

but now your run away gone
run away from your damn destiny
your f*ck journey
and leave me in silent

one day i'll show you the way
one day i'll give you the way
the way of happiness
the way of fabulous dream

when tears falls away from the eyes
you will never face the truth on you
when rain follows it and fall together
you keep moving behind the shadows

hey i can't follow your step!

but now your run away gone
run away from your damn destiny
your f*ck journey
and leave me in silent

one day i'll show you the way
one day i'll give you the way
the way of happiness
the way of fabulous dream

one day i'll bring the present
one day i'll share you my sweetest memory
present of the real light
memory of greatful

Just Words

bismillah ..

lahilah kasian amat yak ini blog gua kaga pernah gua update lagi, sabar ya akhakhah
wey bentar lagi gua mau UAN nih, tanggal 22 Maret 2010, doain yaa

"semoga Maya dilancarkan dan dimudahkan dalam mengerjakan soal, dan lulus UAN dengan nilai yang memuaskan, dan semua teman-teman sekelas seangkatan lulus 100%, AAMIN"

di pagi menjelang siang ini, tau ga?

1. gua belom mandi

2. gua belom makan

3. gua libur

4. gua bilang ke nyokap bokap kalo hari ini ada rapat ternyata ngga ada, tapi guru2 doang yang rapat, tapi mereka udah kesana terus pulang lagi, (bego banget kan gua)

5. gua ngepost blog kaga jelas

6. gua sangat ingin lulus uan dan masuk SAPPK ITB 2010 lewat SNMPTN

7. and ya know? 1 minggu ini merupakan minggu yang berat buat batin gua, tapi alhamdulillah udah gapapa :')) thanks ya Allah You've answered my wish

SELAMAT HARI LIBUR!

ohya, one more, besok Maulid Nabi, insyaAllah tepat gua 5 TAUNAN pake jilbab YEAY!

Weirdie

Recommended from a true story, feel it and maybe you’ll cry ..

One day, there was a little star called Weirdie. She always stayed alone in the sky every night. There was nobody who wanted to accompany her, because she just a little star who couldn’t shine brightly. Stars always shined brightly, didn’t they? So Weirdie couldn’t tell her story, her sadness and happiness, she just saved it all herself because she was alone.

In one February night, she stopped walk around sky and took a break. But she saw a man who had a shiny face. That man came outdoor and sang a song with his guitar, not a happiness song but it sounded sadness. Weirdie wanted to help that man, asked his condition, so she tried to talk. Ups, but she couldn’t because she never talked since there was nobody wants to listens her voices.

So Weirdie always came to that man’s house’s sky every night to saw if he still sad. Day by day till month by month Weirdie stayed there just for saw him fine and felt bright cause of his brightly face, no, brightly eyes and brightly smile. Yeah, she felt brightly, happy.

Weirdie felt comfortable with that man, but wait! There was someone else in that man’s house, a woman. Hey, what did Weirdie feel that time ? She felt jealous. The fact said that Weirdie was felt in love with that man. She wasn’t wrong, rite? Because “It just happened, and couldn’t hold”.

She cried, but actually that woman didn’t has any feel with that man. Wait! Who knows? Weirdie thought that she needed to told that man what she felt, so maybe that man would give her a chance not an empty chance. She tried to took her voice out. And in one December night it happened.

“Hey man, I love you, yeah I do love you badly. It has been a long time, but you never know it, eh, I think you know it now.” Wew, now that man knew the truth. And he said “I’m so sorry, really sorry. You are a beautiful star for me but, I’ve felt in love with that woman. You saw it, didn’t you? ” she was speechless, and in fact that she couldn’t see his expression while he said it to her. “oh, I’m weird, am not I?” then he just answered, “yeah, you are. But, thanks, thanks that you’ve love me. I’m so sorry.”

Weirdie wanted to run away from him as far as possible, but she couldn’t although she had tried hard. She couldn’t let him go. It had been 10 months she loved him, but that man never gave her a chance. She still stayed at his house’s sky to saw him fine, maybe just for checked his smile. However it was hurt, however it was hard to believe Weirdie have not been loved. Sometimes that man went outdoor and saw Weirdie, he smiled, he laughed. How happy Weirdie was. That man have gave her a lot of moments, expression, lights, songs, and life. It was her first time to felt so much things.

But one night, when Weirdie asked him that maybe it’s just a miracle if she could leave him from his woman, he just answered “yeah it’s a miracle, but maybe another star can.” What a GUN words. Then she cried silently in order there was none can heard her after this all she couldn’t cry. Weirdie wanted to scream, “HEY BOY, I LOVE, L-O-V-E YOU BADLY! COULDN’T YOU JUST LOVE ME BACK A BIT?! GOD!” but she didn’t wanna make him felt sorry for her, so she just did it by her pure heart. “We should be together …”

Weirdie controlled her mind and feeling to be calm down for a while. Then she came to that man again as a friend also she still needed his brightly face. But, that man never went outdoor again looked like he said “I just won’t to be outdoor right now”. She thought that she just wanna be his best friend and always there beside him. So she did. She always stayed in his house’s sky. Until now, Weirdie, a beautiful-unbrightly star, still there always waiting for his come.

Although that man will never love the poor Weirdie. Because it’s just a miracle, isn’t it? Is there anyone still believe in a miracle now? Could you give it to Weirdie a little bit please? Because she wishes she got it however.


Really hard to write this,
THE END

*sorry for the grammatically error -_-

p.s t.a.a.f.r.p.s

Inginku, Bukan Hanya Jadi Temanmu

Inginku bukan hanya jadi temanmu.
Atau sekedar sahabatmu
Yang rajin dengar ceritamu
Tak perlu hanya kau lihat ketulusan
Yang sebenarnya tak kusangkal
Kadang ku hilang kesabaran

Mungkinkah akan segera berakhir
Seiring jalannya hari
Kini ku tergila padamu
Yang ada bila tak juga kau sadari
Akan kutempuh banyak cara
Agar engkau tau semua mauku

Biarkan aku untuk jadi kekasihmu
Karna tak percaya ungkapan
Cinta tak harus memiliki
Terlambat jika aku harus berubah
Ku terlanjur ingini semua
Yang ada di dalam dirimu

Mungkinkah akan segera berakhir
Seiring jalannya hari
Kini ku tergila padamu
Yang ada bila tak juga kau sadari
Akan kutempuh banyak cara
Agar engkau yakin semua mauku

Dan berulang mencoba
Tuk merebut hati dan cintamu
Sadarkah dirimu sering kau kesalkan aku
Bila masih saja kau menyebut namanya

Mungkinkah akan segera berakhir
Seiring jalannya hari
Kini ku tergila padamu
Yang ada bila tak juga kau sadari
Akan kutempuh banyak cara
Agar engkau yakin semua mauku
Semua mauku....