Bismillah…
Ma. Maya kangen. Izinin aku tulis di blog setiap kangen Mama, ya?
Al-Fatihah untuk Mamaku yang paling cantik sedunia.
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It was April 19th, 2025. The day I see your last breath in this world. I still remember every second in that Emergency Room. ‘Forgive me, Mom’ ‘Maafin, ya Ma’ is the only words I can say at that time. I’m asking her forgiveness when she’s gone. Forgiveness for effort that maybe not maximal enough to help her during this hard time. Forgiveness that I’m tired when things get harder day by day.
I keep remembering her last words.
One day she saw me cut my hair, “Bagus rambutnya May, kalau potong gitu aja ya.”
When I’m asking for apologize after crying hard at hospital bcs that was my hardest day along 5 months. “Maafin ya Ma, kemarin aku capek banget, aku sayang Mama.”
“Iya. Mama juga sayang Maya. Mama cuma kaget aja.”
After that day, she rejects to sleep with me, just to ensure I have enough rest. I sleep in her room together in one bed, just to ensure I always aware of her. Eventho I couldn’t rest well.
When I bring her to Ek* hospital ER bcs she had hard time last 3 days of her life, “Makasi ya May, uang Maya habis ya?”
When I help her to clean herself in the morning before went to office. “Makasi ya Maya. Cantik anak Mama.”
Ma. Maya kangen.
Istirahat yang tenang ya Ma di alam kubur, sampai bertemu di Surga nya Allah, insyaAllah.
Love you. See you in another post, Ma.
