Is it a silver lining or blessing in disguise?

Bismillah...

Wow the last post was exactly the same month last year, means it’s been a year. I can tell that last year was hard for me, mentally. I thought I already past my 2016 nightmare, but turned out last quarter of 2019 was my truest turning point.

I feel way better in 2020, Alhamdulillah. That’s why I wrote the tittle of this post like that. Of course 2020 is bad and terrifying for me and all of us. We all know that this pandemic is not over yet, while it’s nearly quarter 3 of 2020. We must always pray this pandemic will leave us this year. Despite of whatever our government do to handle this crisis, I will always try to do physical distancing, hand washing, and use mask to fight it. Please, so do you.

So.

The negative sides of this crisis was a lot, but having bad news everyday was slowly triggering me mentally. That I became afraid and insecure of living, and it’s bad. Before getting worse, I decide to stop consuming pandemic news, I didn’t even write the virus here in my blog. I change my way of thinking to compiling positive sides of what really happened in 2020, and focusing in myself.

The silver lining or blessing in disguise of this pandemic for me is ‘keep the distance’ of everything. Maintaining the distance of people makes me know everything less. There are a lot more time for me to understand myself better. It’s not lie that I miss socializing with friends and working face to face with my colleagues (while working from home and applying physical distancing policy). But, it’s not bad at all. I befriend myself, I’m loving myself.

My target for this year is not much. I will try to keep this ‘keep the distance’ in consistent until December.

Alhamdulillah.

Let us get better together. Please always guide us, Ya Allah. Amin. 💕