what a nice dream

bismillah ..

malam ini saya memimpikan anda, terlebih bersama saudara perempuan anda, dalam wujud anda sebelum kedua kali terakhir saya melihat anda, jadi bukan yang terakhir kali, mengerti? baiklah, maksudnya dalam wujud anda masih berumur sepantaran anak SMP, meski seingat saya, saya tetap saya yang sekarang mengecam kuliah. bukan anda yang sekarang, yang tumbuh menjadi lelaki gagah dan menenteng seorang putri dambaan.

seingat saya dalam mimpi itu, anda menyambut saya pulang ke rumah di rumah lama anda, tepat jaraknya dua rumah sebelum rumah saya. ketika kakak cantik anda mengajak saya pergi jalan-jalan, seingat saya, saya menolak dengan sopan bahwa saya terlalu lelah untuk pergi saat itu, saya baru saja pulang, bukan? kemudian raut mukanya berubah murung. dan anda hanya mengumbar senyum mengungkapkan maklum.

aneh sekali, interior rumah anda itu campuran antara rumah anda yang dulu sekali sekaligus yang sekarang sudah ditempati oleh orang yang baru sejak lama. tepat di teras, depan jendela ruang tamu. tembok pagar berwarna hijau jungle versi Crayola. saya lupa apa yang anda lakukan saat itu, seingat saya, aktifitas favorit anda sewaktu kecil, bereksperimen mengenai sesuatu yang aneh.

cuma itu. cuma itu mimpi pengantar tidur saya malam ini yang saya ingat. terima kasih sudah datang malam ini, dengan wujud yang paling saya sukai. lain kali, datanglah lebih lama, sampai saya bisa membuatnya menjadi cerita yang lebih panjang.

terima kasih.
terima kasih sekali,
Maya

p.s
lalu saya cek facebook anda dan voila! guess what i found?
your relationship changed into 'single'
kyaaaaaaaaa! happy!
astagfirullah :p

si Botak :D

bismillah ..

ekhem, ngawalinnya darimana ya enaknya? haha

well, insyaAllah gua besok pagi balik ke rumah, bersama Legend ganteng (motor kesayangan gua) berdua, haha. otomatis, semua tugas baik tugas kuliah, maupun tugas kamarpun gua kebut semampu gua. doain ya, soalnya gua ga bilang nyokap-bokap, secara sebenernya gua mau dijemput besoknya hehe. bismillah aja lah.

oh iya mau update, inget si Botak yang suka gua gambar pas SMA? yak, pasti pada ga tau haha. iya dulu waktu SMA gua suka gambar si Botak tanpa nama ini di kertas binder gua haha. terus tadi pas gak konsen kuliah gua gambar-gambar aja, soalnya entah mengapa, kalo gua gambar-gambar waktu kayaknya cepet banget lewatnya kontras banget sama kalo gua dengerin kuliah dosen, haha :p

Si Botak :D

itu sebenernya gambarnya pake Penciltic pink makanya jadi agak gak jelas gitu hahahaha apasi.

Haaaah, sambil nunggu maghrib mending gua ngelist apa aja yang mau gua packing, secara mau pulang 2 minggu, cihuuuuuuuuuuy :D

BYE! :D

Happy Mother's Day

bismillah ...

Ya Allah, setiap malam aku berdoa, tidak, selesainya aku mengadu dan bersyukur kepada Mu di tiap hari-hariku, aku tundukkan kepala ku dan ku angkat tanganku seraya berdoa dan meminta kepada Mu:

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Robbighfir lii wa li waalidayya warhamhumaa kamaa robbayaanii shoghiiroo

“Ya Tuhanku! Ampunilah aku, ibu bapakku dan kasihilah mereka keduanya, sebagaimana mereka berdua telah mendidik aku waktu kecil.”

Ya Allah, aku mencintainya lebih dari pada aku mencintai hidupku, aku mohon berikanlah ia umur panjang sampai aku bisa membahagiakan dirinya dan hidupnya dengan peluh dan kerja kerasku sendiri.

Ya Allah, maafkan segala dosa-dosanya dan ridhoilah setiap langkahnya

Ya Allah, maafkan segala dosa-dosaku, terlebih yang membuat ia terluka, menangis dan bersedih, semua adalah semata khilaf ya Allah

Ya Allah, bimbinglah aku, ingatkan aku, disinilah aku berada jauh darinya berusaha membahagiakan beliau

Ya Allah, inilah doa-doa lebih di sesudah shubuhku untuknya sebagai hadiah untuk beliau di Hari Ibu, Hari Ibu pertama saat aku jauh dari beliau, kumohon kabulkanlah, aaamin




I love my mother as the trees love water and sunshine - she helps me grow, prosper, and reach great heights. ~Terri Guillemets

Rabu, 22 Desember 2010
I love you, my life,
Maya

what did you learn today

bismillah ...

hari ini, kalau kalian liat postingan gua sebelum-sebelumnya, gua ikutan berpartisipasi dalam ajang bergengsi (aseeeek) se asrama TPB IPB 2010, SS Cup 2010! haha yoi gua ikut futsal, dan jadi Tim Susy (Super Sylva) A, yang main shift pagi :D

disini gua pengen cerita-cerita sedikit pengalaman gua ikutan lomba futsal, secara sebelumnya gak pernah, paling sering nontonin anak SF (Spirit Football, tim futsal anak aksel angkatan 2 SMA gua, temen sekelas lebih tepatnya) main doang sambil dokumentasiin haha. jujur gua nyalonin diri buat ikutan futsal karena sejak nontonin SF gua pengen nyobain juga main futsal, apalagi kalo ada yang jatoh-jatohnya, tabrak-tabrakannya, gua pengen aja ngerasain sensasinya halah apasi. iya kan biasanya kalo gua nonton SF tuh kalo udah ada yang jatoh-jatoh dan tabrakan, gua ngerasanya kesian gimana gitu, eh eh ternyata kalo gua jadi pemainnya sama juga gitu yang nontonin gua haha.

oke kita rangkum yuch ceritanya :p

pagi-pagi banget hari ini pintu kamar gua digedor-gedor sama rekan setim sekaligus sekelas gua, Rani, jam 6 pagi. dia nyuruh gua untuk lekas mandi soalnya kita briefing jam setengah 7, padahal mainnya jam 8 -_- dengan ogah-ogahan karena ngantuk gua akhirnya nurut. karena kayaknya gua kelamaan, gua pun gak sempet sarapan dan cuma makan gorengan di Ummi (kantin asrama gua, A5 Sylva).

setelah ikutan upacara pembukaan SS Cup di lapangan basket depan GOR lama IPB, tim futsal dari semua asrama putri (A1, A2, A3, A4, dan pastinya A5 Sylva) jalan kaki ke lapangan Asrama Putri (ASTRI). disitu sebelum mulai kita briefing bareng panitia dan wasit serta diberikan waktu 10 menit buat warming up. kesan pertama gua ngeliat wasit; ganteng. 2 wasit ganteng itu emang gua taunya seangkatan dan dari asrama C4 Sylva. yang satu cowoknya Sari (Panitia PJ Futsal) namanya Irsyad, satu lagi Abrar.

tarian kemenangan, haha

mulai lah pertandingan pembuka, A5 Sylva vs A1 menang 2 -1. terus pas nonton 1 pertandingan gua lupa A berapa yang tanding, terus lawan kita lagi, disini lah gua jatoh-jatohan dan tabrak-tabrakan sama lawan, akakakak. mereka emang mainnya gila-gilaan. secara gua tadi udah main 2 x 15 menit, terus istirahat 30 menit cuma minum sama makan risol, gua agak ngos-ngosan gitu, ahaha. gara-gara temen gua serem gimana gitu ngeliat pertandingan yang agak serem ini, akhirnya gua diganti, pas lari ke pinggir lapangan gua agak sesek napas, serem sendiri gua jadinya, alhamdulillah ngga kenapa-kenapa. seinget gua tadi yang kena tabrak dada gua sama leher. terus jatohnya gua nyungsruk ke pinggir lapangan mentok lutut kiri dan lain-lain gua lupa.

pertandingan shift pagi selesai jam 11an, tim gua gak lolos ke semifinalnya dengan skor 0 -1 . pas pulang ke asrama gua gak langsung makan dan mandi karena ternyata kepala gua rada pusing gitu, akhirnya gua tidur tuh ampe sore nahan laper soalnya pusing. eh pas sore gua bangun udah seger, badan gua sakit-sakit semua -__-, ternyata pas gua periksa lutut gua memar -________- haha, perfect! padahal tadi sebelum pulang gua bilang ke temen gua;

'harusnya pertandingan terakhir mainnya dilebayin dong kayak gua, jatoh-jatohan akhakhaa'

well, what did you learn from today? apa ya?
intinya sih jatoh-jatohan dan tabrak-tabrakan kalo perlu aja dan kalo penasaran aja, gak usah disengajain dan dilebay-lebayin. soalnya badan memar itu gak enak -_- haha dan tentu saja bermain dengan sportif! :D

LIBUR SEBENTAR LAGI, SEMANGAT!

Maya

Sylvasari Cup (SS Cup) Day 1

bismillah ...

alhamdulillah hari pertama Sylvasari Cup (SS Cup), meski belum selesai, futsal tim A sukses meski gak menang :p ya intinya alhamdulillah lah haha

pembukaan SS Cup 2010

Ketua pelaksana dan Senior Resident SS: Mumu, Ukhti Ochi

Senior Resident dan Lurah Sylvasari: Ukhti Yuli, Tiwi

Susy 1 (Super Sylva) dari kiri ke kanan: Rani, Zilla, Maya, Ntuz, Tia

Susy 1 in action, akakak -_-



SEMANGAT!

Maya

p.s
photos taken by Mega
edited by me

fresh me, fresh blue

bismillah ..

Today was sooo exhausting. especially in the morning i think. anyway i get freshly now because of it :D we -all of B class, first year colleger- have just done an event for closing Sport class at the end of first semester.

The atmosphere of the Gym was so sportive. it was full of the B class colleger and the traditional sport game things. But when the event started, the other who not playing the game just sit around the Gym chairs or the Gym floor, there was still anyone who cheers the participants though. well, i was being the second description :p

As you know, IPB has a special class for their first year colleger, yeah it is Sport class. i love this one, because we do have fun along class. we just playing around and get our body and mind to be fresh after study many things in other class.

Because of that, i'm now missing this class already. next semester B classes will exchange their schedule with all of A class. and i think A class schedule is boring. they have Biology class, Chemistry class, Bahasa class, Economy class and Religion class. in the other hand, B class have Sport class, Physics class, Sosiology class and Citizenship class. a simple info that you can conclude is B class will be an A class at the second semester.

Well, we haven't done it yet, so let's see what it's like :)

Polo shirt, a pretty unbranded skirt from Jogja, Paris hijab, a Pin from Jogja too, my favorite bracelet and watch, an unbranded black bag

Ganbatte Kudasai for UAS!
Maya

The past

bismillah ...

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Hari ini gua berasa sibuk banget, walaupun di minggu yang bad abis, dan bahkan saat gua menulis tulisan untuk post kali ini aja, sebenarnya gua belum mandi dari pagi. Bukan belum mandi, tapi belum SEMPET mandi. Padahal sih, dari tadi pagi cuma ada kelas olahraga, terus gua ngepost 1 yang post sebelum ini terus gua diajak temen buat ikut acara keputrian tapi ga jadi, terus makan siang di Blue Corner, terus nganterin temen lagi buat ngeprint tugasnya.

Dan sekarang disinilah gua 13:41, belum sempet mandi padahal ada kuliah Sosiologi Umum jam 15:00, dan sekarang gua ngantuk banget. Gua yakin kalo gua tidur dulu gua pasti ngebablas itu kelas, sedangkan gua udah bolos itu kelas 1 kali. Dan meski gua ikut kelas, pasti kerjaan gua tidur kalo ngga ngerjain tugas fisika, gah.

Akhirnya gua malah nostalgia di blog gua sendiri, yang jelas-jelas ngebuang waktu gua banget, haha. Gak kerasa udah mau 2011, dan blog ini udah eksis sejak Maret 2009. Gak nyangka juga ternyata sebagian hidup gua terangkum selama itu. Dari lebay banget nulis cerita ampe jadi selow. Dari bahasa inggrisnya amburadul ampe lebih baik. Dari suka sama A terus sakit hati, terus suka sama si B terus sakit hati lagi, dan sampai sekarang 'kekosongan kekuasaan' alias gak suka sama siapa-siapa.

Kelihatan sih ya sekarang alasan kenapa gua gak ingin terlalu mudah buat suka lagi sama orang lain yang baru. haha. Dua kali sakit hati udah cukup ngebuat gua trauma. Yak, trauma. Secara gak langsung sepertinya, dan kesini nya gua malah mikir kalo gua trauma. Bodo lah.

Yak 13:50, mending gua mandi sekarang aja lah ya, bye!

Maya

Home

bismillah ..

"Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home"
Home - Michael Buble

yeah, i just wanna go home, this week is totally suck. but i know there is still a hope in weekend, because there will be a competition named SS CUP, kyaaaa! although i know my mood isn't good but i have to give my best in that competition, akhakha lebay. there were so many bad event happened this week, so the best cure for that 'miracle' is just going home. but but but, gah. there are still 6 days left.

HOME HOME HOME, I just wanna go home!

those photos are from deviantart, i love them!
each photos come from here, here, and here

“There's nothing half so pleasant as coming home again.” - Margaret Elizabeth Sangster

Maya

Bad Mood mode: On

bismillah ...

i don't know what is wrong with today. i think that maybe it is because of my 'coming days'. but i do bad mood. and maybe it's because i am full of my own thoughts, like i wanna go home soon but i still have to wait for days and it's still there many task, assignment of college, and i think it's going to be crashed each other in my head, gah.

somebody please get me out of my day today, damn!

image's source is here, here, and also here

calm down, just do a sleep, May
it will be better later

It's just my opinion

bismillah ..

"Because life is too short to be wasted" - Maya Ramadhayanti

tidak bermain-main bukan berarti tidak bersenang-senang dan terlalu serius dalam menjalani dan mengisi kehidupan seseorang. menurut saya, setiap orang memiliki caranya masing-masing dalam melakukan sesuatu hal, termasuk caranya mengisi hidup. namun, begitu juga dengan caranya masing-masing dalam berpendapat terhadap suatu hal.

banyak orang yang menganggap hidup dengan tujuan dan arah yang jelas (saya berpendapat seperti itu) sebagai sesuatu yang terlalu serius. namun, tidak sedikit juga menganggap itu sebagai sesuatu yang baik. begini misalnya, seseorang yang tidak memiliki pacar sebenarnya memiliki prinsip yang berbeda, ia lebih suka mendapatkan suami yang baginya lebih jelas kekonsistensiannya dibanding pacar yang memiliki konsekuensi putus; putus hubungan menjadi teman, atau lanjut ke jenjang yang lebih serius.

pada akhirnya seseorang itu pun dengan hati-hati menjaga perasaanya agar tidak jatuh ke apa yang akan membuat prinsipnya runtuh, contohnya kuliah ya kuliah. hal ini lah yang membuat banyak orang berfikir dan berpendapat dia terlalu serius dalam menjalani hidupnya. padahal, seperti kalimat pertama saya; tidak bermain-main bukan berarti tidak bersenang-senang. banyak kesenangan yang seseorang itu alami dalam hidupnya namun hanya bukan pacaran. seseorang ini sebenarnya memiliki banyak teman dan keluarga yang selalu mengisi waktu kosongnya untuk bersenang-senang, hanya saja bermain-main dengan perasaan bukan pilihannya.

perasaan terlalu rapuh dan suci untuk dipermainkan. itu sebabnya seseorang ini kemudian sangat berhati-hati dalam menjaga kepunyaannya. apakah salah? tentu tidak. karena setiap orang memiliki caranya sendiri dalam mengisi hidup.

the image's source is image's source and here, and here.

it's up to you to understand this writing, because it's just my opinion,
Maya

"please appreciate your life, for the better future" - Maya Ramadhayanti

Sylvasari Cup (SS Cup)

bismillah ..

it's coming soon, guys

DON'T MISS IT

p.s
i took futsal :D wish me luck!

Friday

bismillah ...

Jumat yang lalu, sekitar jam 10.00 gua nganterin temen gua Sara ke Rosalia Indah di Tajur, Bogor buat beli tiket bis. dia rencananya pengen pulang kampung ke Madiun H-1 Natal. bukan berarti dia natalan, emang tanggal 24 Desember itu aktivitas kampus udah selesai.

Jalan Tajur

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Nah, setau gua Tajur itu lurus aja setelah Jalan Pajajaran. Jalan Pajajaran itu tempat Botani Square, dan sebelum Tajur kita harusnya lewat Ekalokasari Plaza. tapi Sara kayaknya ga tau kalo gua tau jalan, secara gua yang pegang motor masa kagak tau jalan (belagu). akhirnya gua turutin aja si Sara nunjukin jalan. gak taunya dia malah nunjukin track nya angkot kesana, dan ternyata itu track muter, lewat Jalan Jasmine yang jalanannya 'bagus abis' buat Legend, jalannya besar, dan banyak lampu merahnya. gua sih sante aja sekalian jalan-jalan, eh malah temen gua ini yang nyesel lewat jalan yang dia tunjuk sendiri.

Botani Square


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Sara: May, nanti pulangnya gak usah lewat sini ya
Maya: oke

beberapa selang kemudian,

Sara: May, kok ga nyampe-nyampe ya
Maya: iya ini muter kan jadi lebih lama

lalu,

Sara: May, nyampe kampus 'pantai' (bahasa Jambi) aku ilang nih
Maya: hahaha

nah sesampainya di Rosalia Indah itu, gua nungguin Sara beli tiketnya. gua mikir kok gua nekat ya ke kota, ampe Tajur lagi, gak bawa STNK dan gak bawa SIM, lebih tepatnya; GAK PUNYA. akakakak. nah ternyata Sara gak tau kalo gua gak punya itu surat-surat motor. ekspresinya berubah langsung takut kalo ada polisi gimana, akakakak. untungnya gua berhasil menenangkan dia, kalo disini itu jarang ada polisi (padahal sok tau), dan alhamdulillah emang kita selamat.

Ekalokasari Plaza


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pas pulang gua ngajak Sara makan dulu, tapi pengen yang elit dikit, akhirnya kita ke Mal terdekat di Tajur (sebut saja Mawar) makan KFC, akakakak. Nah pas masuk parkiran gua ngeliat tuh "Motor tanpa STNK dilarang masuk" gua mikirnya si selow aja, tapi yang namanya baru sekali bawa motor kesini kan pasti parno-parno gimana gitu nanti pas keluar ditanyain apa ngga STNK nya, haha.

akhirnya pas makan KFC, si Sara gak tenang

Sara: May, nanti gapapa kan ga ada STNK
Maya: udah gak usah dipikirin
(dalem hati mikirin plan B kalo ditanyain STNK)

alhamdulillah banget ternyata, STNK gak ditanyain haha.

Kejadian lainnya adalah nyasar. ahaha pas pulang tuh pengen lewat Jalan Sindang Barang biar deket, eh gua lupa-lupa jalannya dan malah nyasar. udah gitu kita nyaris ke tabrak angkot dan lain-lain beberapa kali. alhamdulillah gak kenapa-kenapa.

Tugu Kujang

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pas abis hampir ciuman ama angkot
Sara: May kamu gak deg-deg an?
Maya: alhamdulillah ngga

tapi beneran ngga, kayaknya mungkin karena udah biasa haha, tapi alhamdulillah lah ga kenapa-kenapa, diingetin kali gua soalnya ini gua sebenernya gak boleh bawa Legend jauh-jauh, jadi bokap-nyokap gak tau. padahal jauhnya kota dari IPB hampir sama kayak ke rumah.

Maaf ya Ma, Pa :D
Maya

Peta

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Just The Way You Are - Bruno Mars

bismillah ..

pertama kali denger adalah karena kakak gua bahagia dikasih lagu ini sama pacarnya terus dia nyuruh gua ikut dengerin juga, eh ternyata liriknya unyuuuu, akakak -_- kapan ya ada yang ngasih ini lirik ke gua WAKAKAK ngarep.

or you can watch it online here

Just The Way You Are
Bruno Mars

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

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an ordinary one

bismillah

just wanna share my artworks; my.photoart, for my beloved blog, "An Ordinary One" :D

love you my blog :*
Maya

visitors

bismillah

internet world is totally amazing, haha apasih -_-

click the picture to see the real size

one word for the international visitors: WOW

design

bismillah

live in a dormitory while busy with college stuffs, make me officially love living here. you know? the atmosphere was so perfect, actually for me. the location especially.

the room, the lobby, the living room, the mushola, the balcony, the canteen, the alley, even the bathroom, and of course the people who live here. i love them :D

and i think time goes faster each day, and a new year will come soon which means new place for living is come soon too! kost-an, gaaah. i can't imagine how it will be so busily to search on and prepare. well, i have to face it anyway, right?

by the way, this is my special design for my special dorm :D these are may will be released, or not, haha, because i just help the other to create a design then they will make a decision; will they take one of these to be the winner design for t-shirt or sweater of A5 Sylva, dormitory of IPB?

i don't know, so do you, haha, we'll see :)

design #1

i love this one, all of them actually. the stripped 'A5' font was designed by me using Photoshop CS2 (still using CS2 :p) i chose green for its color, because it's forest color and SYLVA means forest. i took '2010' in the back of course because we are 2010 generation. 'spirit in leading and viva!' is our jingle :D. and gray for the background because my dorm is gray, you know, the color of the wall.

design #2
i don't know actually why i chose the purple-blue-gray-mixed for the background, it's just i chose it haha :p for this one, i admire the logo of A5, it seems like a house, and i made it my self, totally original. smile means we are happy living here, so does the sun. i made it with a 'girly' style.



sweater design
heeem .. this one was beautiful! #lebe i chose brown for the strength, i do believe girls are not weak, and i see it from every girl in my dorm, we are strong :D not always our physic but heart. and the leave definitely represent us who live in the middle of the forest :)

Happy Islamic new year, all!
may Allah bless us, to be a better one in this year, aaamin

Maya

special for you guys, mom dad

bismillah ..

0.46 am

i almost let my tears fell away when i heard their voices. this one was different from another thing. i know that maybe this week will be my PMS week, but you guys please just let me say these things.

legend was sick. he couldn't be 'started' by anyone, me tough. and i reported it to my dad, and asked how to cure him, so me and legend could walk together again like usual. i thought maybe he was angry that i haven't brought him to the salon. well legend is my ride. my beloved friend and thing to.

then, this afternoon, my mom called me. she called me after dad did. dad told me that he might visit me then fix my legend, but he said he will but in the right time, as soon as possible.

after prayed Ashar, mom called. she said, she will accompany dad to fix legend tomorrow morning.

mom: will you be busy tomorrow?
me: i think i will
mom: what time will you start your college stuff?
me: 8 am
mom: free time?
me: it'll be at 1 pm
mom: well i maybe will arrived in the morning, with your dad
me: but i will not be in my dorm at that time, mom
mom: just give your legend's key to Ummi (my canteen dorm owner who knows me lot) then tell her i'll come
me: so you and dad just visit and fix legend then?
mom: of course, is it okay?
me: (flat tone) yeah
mom: okay, bye
me: (end the call, hold the tears out)

they will just fix my legend, while i study. i will not come back home next weekend, because i think it will wasteful my time and money.

they are so lovely with their habit.
i love them much

thanks for everything
i really want to meet you mom dad tomorrow. but you guys said to me not to absent in every each class i have.


i love you guys
for the sake of my life,
Maya

a letter to you

bismillah...

saturday midnight, at home

hi dude, how's life? i know it's impossible that you'll read this e-letter :) but let me try to write something, you know, just to let my feel out.

next December will be 3 months left after you visited me, i mean us, my family.

i still dreaming that some day i will visit you, and i think it'll be lovely in winter time! dreams do come true, remember?

by the way, i'm fine, and mom, dad, ka mega, mitha, they're good. how's your parents and ka virgi?

my college stuff are amazing. you should have these things quickly to know how i feel :)

however, problems are always around. stressed, going mad, then die, lol. i can solve it, don't worry :D

home always remind me that you've been here

well, take care!




time is ticking :D
Maya

me and my crystal life

bismillah ..

i live my life with my own rights
no any preasure, even force

i choose what i want to
even just walking trough the way

i learn from what i've seen, i've heard, and i've felt
and i conclude every single knowlegde i've accepted

i have rights to do anything with responsibility
because this is my crystal life, which is shiny and beauty, not always tough

i hate when people judge another in the first sight
even first sight is naturally important

i probably selfish, but this is what i've chosen to confess what i want to

my crystal life
always try to shine the whole life, even in the darkest place




with pleasure,
Maya

my dorm's wifi is gone

bismillah ..

it's gone
and it has been one week left
and now, here, i'm laying my head upon my pillow
i'm texting in my phone, just wanna posting this post
it's hard to believe, actually
there is no more free wifi
fiuh ..
this is called a destiny
so try to accept all of it
with hope you'll accept more
:D


be strong,
Maya

what a mark

bismillah ...


tetap bersyukur, tetap berusaha ...



cause i got this one ..

"karena kita jatuh untuk berdiri kembali" - pak SDM, dosen Kewarganegaraan IPB

grateful

bismillah...

"subhanallah warlhamdulillah walaailaahaillallah wallahuakbar"

setiap keyakinan akan membuahkan hasil, namun tanpa ridhoNya hasil takkan ada guna.

terima kasih untuk awal yang baik kali ini ya Allah, semoga yang selanjutnya akan mengikuti si 'awal' ini atau bahkan lebih baik, aaamin.

Maya

desk or mess? what-so-ever

bismillah ...



"i'm just ... messing around, kind of such things like rubbish, yeah, now, in time, i'm kind of those things, it feels like tomorrow is my 'day', what a damn :/

it also seems like a dilemma.

tonite, i'm sitting silently in front of my desk, doing such thing mean less, thinking of nothing, and you know it's just empty. so what's the problem? i don't know, ha ha, seriously.

so November, eighth 2010 is my dilemma day! ha ha -_-

i thought maybe it's because of post-midterm, you know the situation, the atmosphere really don't boost the mood, my mood by the way. but that thoughts suddenly disappeared and change to be another-irresponsibility-reasons; broken heart (WHAT?!) oke, ini sudah jauh dari sebuah standar kewarasan -_- demen ama siapa aja gak jelas, sakit hati ama siape lu may? ck -__-"




so, it's the end of the post, my desk of mess, even those photos seem represent my day today, ha, eat it guys! (well, don't really 'eat' it)

"Because a fear never will make you life." - Maya Ramadhayanti